all up in it...

This past week I've been really having a hard time missing family and friends, counting down the days almost every day and disappointed when time doesn't seem to pass as quickly as I want it to. I got a few emails from friends speaking to this without really knowing it, suggesting that I take time to really get alone with Jesus and allow Him to fulfill my needs, especially when I'm feeling lonely even in the midst of loads of people.

So I did. Yesterday I took a day off with Jesus. I spent time intentionally with Him doing some of my favorite things as I wanted Him to be a part of it...a long bath, some awesome worship music, time with a friend, watching an inspirational and God-revealing movie, and then just being with Him. I even got work done faster than I imagined and got to be early and had a restful night sleep.

The realization hit me that Jesus just wants to be with us. He doesn't need big plans and fanfare, but He still comes through that and hangs with us. He doesn't have to have minute by minute plans, but will come and chill despite our schedule's busyness. I realized that like a friend that is closer than a brother, and a man that wants to be a lover, He is completely captivated by us and desperate for our time. He is willing to sit and wait for us to get a clue and turn around or open the door and say, "Come in." I woke up this morning and realized that I am just a girl, and He's just the man to knock on the door of my heart and once opened, will love me like I've never been loved or ever will be loved. He has no agenda and no list of things needing to be done. He just wants to love me. Why do I make it so hard?

I'm working on it...the getting all up in it with Him and leaving everything else alone...